So, in my continuation of my therapy and progress in surviving and thriving with MST, I have this week accepted a volunteer position as the new Veteran's Liaison and Outreach Coordinator for PACT! I am thrilled to be a taking a leadership role in this great organization! I joined the group at the beginning of the year and lobbied with several of them during this past session. Above is a pic of some of us from PACT that showed up to lobby legislators and many of the same came later to testify for 3785, the Medical Cannabis act, that was never allowed a vote. Little Alexis had a terrible seizure in Feb, and her parents moved her to Colorado, where now she is well over 200 days with NO seizures. It was very sad that she could not come back to Texas to testify at the hearings herself, although her father, a quite remarkable man himself, and also a disabled veteran did. Vincent and many of the folks in the above pic did testify, and you can see it yourself in some of my previous entries here.
I have turned down offers from other organizations to do this, but when Tracy at PACT asked, I knew this was the group I had been waiting for to work for and with uniting more veterans in this campaign for justice. PACT is all about patients. The Founder and Peerless Leader, Vincent Lopez, passed away in Oct and we will miss his physical presence, but I have no doubt he will be everywhere we are as we continue his work. It is truly an honor to be able to help out in this great alliance. We didn't get the whole plant through this year, but in 2017, I am sure we will, if it's not done by then. But, I can still see patients and families needing to be united to be sure we get the bills written in the best interests of patients!
I read this great article (below) and it both triggered me and helped me understand why my PTSD is so severe. Mine went on for years, and it wasn't just in one place. My supervisors were good at sending me to isolated places so they could do as they pleased with me. On my second base, when it was the two of them.... well.. that was even worse. I never fucking got a break from them asshats. I continue to work on getting better, but I know it will only get so good. My fight to legalize medical cannabis is a vital link to my getting better. I am working to right a wrong, as I cannot work to right my own wrongs. Getting justice and peace for patients is sooo important to me. I have lost dear friends to cancer and opiate over dose. I almost lost my sanity, and some of it's not coming back round the bend.
One of the things I realized that was different between MST survivors and Combat warriors, is that we both live with terrible trauma. But... their's isn't personal. Ours is. When your supervisor is raping and abusing you... that's as fuckin' personal as it gets. In war, in combat, they are just trying to kill everyone.. it's not personal. You can be any soldier getting shot at. But with rape.... it's not just anyone. They picked you, and they enjoy hurting and destroying you. Well, since the best revenge is living well, I'll go medicate and blow a puff to those that tried to destroy me. They did not. I'd rather be illegally healed then dead. And now, as PACT's new and first Veteran's Outreach Coordinator, I plan on helping as many more as I can! Now I have to learn Powerpoint and start connecting even more.
Best to all out there,
Over and out,