It's been a few busy months. K and I finally go married on July 30th, after some 9 years together. And building has finally started on our new home up in the Sam Houston forest.. yup, 8.36 acres. Will be perfect for growing once we get the laws changed!
I have really been enjoying my volunteer job as Houston NORML's Veteran Outreach Director. It's given me such a wonderful opportunity to meet and help and educate others, and be educated myself.
We have a huge event called the Lone Star Rally that we will be at from Wed Nov2 thru Sun Nov 6th, with bug out the next day on the 7th. I am making some shirts to wear at it.. this is my first ones:
I wrote about Ann Lee a few months back, and now there is going to be a documentary about RAMP and there is a party about it next Thur I am going to:
Then there is an MPP event here in Houston next Sat which myself and my friend Jeffery are going to.
As for my MST situation... this activism has been of huge help in regards to it. I have to talk about it.. and people listen. That's really important. New people hear about it.. many have never heard of military sexual trauma.
Just yesterday, I was at a lunch with an adult social group with friends and a new person joined us. He asked about the brace I have to wear on my left hand now.
He asked if it was from stopping a fall as he teaches classes on 'how to fall right'. " No".. I had to say, " It's from my supervisors grabbing my thumb and using it to twist my arm behind my back and force me into submission and to control me. And the fucks on both bases did it the same. So now, as I have gotten older, all those twisted bones have developed sharp edges that saw on the tendons. The VA wants to cut them out and use tendons from my arm to build a 'new' sort of joint there. But I am not up to that at this point, I'd rather wear the brace which helps keep my thumb immobile. "
He stared at me, obviously aghast. I am sure he'd never had that answer before in the years he's been asking that question of people. I don't enjoy shocking people that way. Thank goodness the friends there with me mostly know my story and were nodding sportively. I told him about The Invisible War
Four years ago I would have lied.. would not have been able to say the truth without hyperventilating and going into a withdrawal trance. The VA had offered me 'immersion' therapy..where you talk about what happened for months till supposedly it doesn't affect you anymore. Thank goodness Crystal didn't recommend it for me and suggested I be a cannabis activist instead! Boy howdy has this been useful to me. And so much more effective then telling the same person the same story. Especially in our case, we MST survivors. I think a big part of our healing is MAKING OUR STORY COUNT! And doing this, changing the law for other veterans, children, autistic and Asburgers folks, cancer patients , TBI, other PTSD folks.. the list goes on and on... is the best therapy for me for sure. Today, I got to talk to another lady veteran ( Hi D!)
about how much being a cannabis activist has helped me.
While I have made lots of progress... I still have lots of issues that I have to work on. I hate that I have such up and down days.. that K has to be watchful of my moods. I want him to have a smooth and peaceful life. But he knew me before my breakdown.. how successful I was professionally.. that I was able to take him on trips. Now.. I can't imagine how dealing with me feels to him. But he has married me, knowing how crazy and emotional I can be. And I am blessed beyond beyond to have this amazing life with him. The dream home we are building that has keep me super busy on top of being so supportive of my activism. Tomorrow they are supposed to be pouring the foundation and I hope to be up there watching it.
So, that's an update on things... as usual.. I'll try to do this more frequently.
Over and Out,